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Saturday, June 24, 2006

Restless Nights and Crazy Dreams

During the long wait for referral, allot of people, including me, start having trouble sleeping. Your brain won't shut off. You wake up constantly. And you can have some pretty strange dreams! There were so many dreams that I can't remember anymore, but I'll share some that I do remember.

The first "Emerson dream" that I can remember was last year, I think around September. I was having trouble deciding between very pale pink and soft sage for the wall color of her room. Then I dreamed one night that I was home with Emerson and she was about 9 months old and I was carrying her into her room for the very first time...her room with bright Fuschia walls! She scrunched up her nose, turned her head to me and said (yes,'s a dream) "Oh, Mommy, EWWWWW!!".

I painted her room soft sage.

A while later I had this awful dream that a sinister old Chinese man showed up at my door one night and said he was taking her back because it was a mistake to have given her to me!

Took a while to shake that one off.

One night I dreamed I was sitting in the family room after having put her to bed and she was calling out reasons why she had to get up..."Mommy, I need to potty!"..."Mommy, I need to tell you something!"..."Mommy, I need a drink of water!"..."Mommy, I forgot to take out the garbage!"...HUH???????

Then in March I dreamed I was in China for my referral...I suppose in my dream, a "referral" was actually them giving you a baby right then, because a group of people came in with a child and said "Here's your referral, what do you think?" It was heartbreaking because the child was a six year old with extreme special needs and I was wrestling with whether or not there was any way as a single mother I could make this work but finally had to decline the referral and I was crying and devasted not knowing what would happen to this child. But they said, "That's ok, we just thought we'd try. We'll get you another referral." Then a woman walked into the room with a large, pink polka-dotted EGG and said "here's your referral". I said "THIS?" and they said yes, crack it open. So I did, and inside was a very, very newborn baby (cute little shar-pei wrinkled stage newborn) and I said "Oh, my! How OLD is this baby??" and they looked at me like I was crazy and should know this already and said, "Well just check the care tag on her shirt!" So I checked the care tag and it said she was 6.5 months old.

I'm guessing that was my mind trying to prepare me for anything.

And now the latest dream. Apparently they don't stop once you've gotten your referral. About a week ago, I dreamed I was on the phone with my auto insurance company trying to make a change to my policy and the very concerned agent was trying to talk me out of it. I was trying to add Emerson as a 15-month old driver to my policy and she was trying to tell me it was going to be VERY expensive and I should wait until she was older.

Yikes! :)

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Checklist update

The courier brought our passports and visa applications to the Chinese Consulate this morning, so I'm expecting to have them back in my hands by next Friday at the latest.

I received 2 notarized copies of the Homestudy Update in the mail today and tomorrow I'll send that overnight with a "PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE DO THIS QUICKLY" letter and an overnight return mailer to the USCIS in San Antonio, but I'm fairly certain I'll be taking a drive down there again sometime before 7/10 to get the updated I-171H.

I can't seem to wrap my brain around a final packing list, but I'm trying. I keep seeing Swiss Army Knife on lists, but I'm almost 42 years old and have never had an occassion to need one before, so I don't know why I would need one in China. Any ideas?

CA Confirmed!!!

My CA will be 7/24! I'll have Emerson in my arms by 7/17!! I can't even describe all of the emotions I'm feeling. Overwhelming joy and mild terror are just two of them. :))

I'll meet up with my sister in LA on 7/11 and we'll fly out that night. :) My agency has the groups meet in Beijing a few days before going on to province to get over jet lag and do some cultural touring. My sister and I will go in an extra day early and add a second day of touring, so all in all, before going on to Nanchang, we'll see the Great Wall, Tiananmen Square, Forbidden City, Temple of Heaven, Summer Palace, and we'll go to the Beijing Zoo to see the pandas! As excited as I am about that, I'll just be counting the hours until I see my little one. :)

AND for a little icing on the cake, several of my very favorite Jitterbugs (JuneDTC05 group members) who have become very special to me during this long wait will be on my flights and in Beijing and Guangzhou at the same times, so our Jitterbabies can be in a group "red couch" photo!

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Sleepy, Sneezy and...coughy.

That's me, all rolled into one. I've been fighting a cold since this weekend, swollen glands in my neck, soar throat, fever, LOTS of coughing. :( Unfortunately, when I get a cold, they usually linger and this one seems to be settling in for awhile. I'm thinking it's the AC saga of last week (excrutiatingly hot one night, then cold the next) that caused it.

Some good news, though!! The Pediatric Medical Kit came in the mail today! That kit is FULL of just about everything you could possibly need to handle any illness your child may have, including several presciptions. I'm so relieved to be taking that with me.

But if this cough hangs around much longer, I might just have to bust open that Amoxicillin! (just kidding)

Tuesday, June 20, 2006


I received TA today!!!! My agency has requested CA (consulate appointment) for the week of 7/24, and I have a tentative travel date of 7/13!!! Hopefully I'll know by the end of the week my EXACT travel dates and my EXACT day to hold my little Emerson for the first time!!!!

I contacted my SW right away for her to complete my homestudy update and I can hopefully have that off to San Antonio by the end of the week!

Got my sister's passport today and sent hers and mine and the visa applications out right away for delivery tomorrow to the courier. Visa applications in progress!!!

Monday, June 19, 2006

Some TAs came in today...not mine. :(

Some TAs are coming in on the JuneDTC group, but I didn't hear from my agency today, so my fingers are crossed for news tomorrow. I just want to know how long until I'm holding my baby. :)

I called the FBI Fingerprint Clearance Center today and confirmed that my fingerprints cleared on the 17th. CHECK!!

My sister is overnighting her passport and visa application to me and I'll have those off to the courier tomorrow. Semi-CHECK!!